Spotlight For Him

 Life will always throw things our way. But each and everyday we just grow stronger into each other. 3 Years with him has changed my life for the better. I’ll never forget the first “dates” when my heart would race each time i seen him. Or the moments when he would give me a hug and i would just close my eyes and breath in his cologne. ( i still do it till this day lol). His hugs are always the greatest, weather it being a sad, so in love, scared, or safe type of hug. I love them all. He is everything i will ever need in my life. Each day i see him i just thank god for blessing me with such an amazing person. He never fails to make my heart skip a beat. Have you ever loved something or someone so much that when you really think about how lucky you are, you just cry. Being an adult is scary. it makes you really think sometimes. When we were kids things weren’t so scary. We didn’t have a worry in the world.. But now.. life isn’t promised and you can wake up and not even know that you only have hours left. Its scary to think that but its so true and its something everyone has to live with. I couldn’t imagine losing him or any of my family. My fiance does so much and works his ass off just to say ” ill provide for you”. He stresses when he thinks he hasnt done enough but “in reality” hes done more than enough. He needs to understand that. Hes the “man of the house” and wants to make sure hes always on top. At times we argue but its nothing bad at all. I couldn’t imagine being those couples that just scream at each other. We’ve never done that.. I pray we never do as well. I know this writing is kinda like “odds and ends” in a puzzle but i just wanna tell the world everything about him and just brag to the world how lucky i am and for some reason i can never find enough worlds.. ha ha..

I Wanna Be With My Angel..

  
These past couple days have been so hard. So hard understanding .. It’s been two weeks since the ER visit and everyday has been like hell. There’s times I smile and laugh but at the end of the moment it’s the same heart wrenching sadness that sweeps in and crushes my insides. I look at my fiancé and just see the sadness .. He’s trying so hard to be strong , yet both of us just wish we could have our little baby back.  Tomorrow I go to schedule my D & C  and I’m not ready for that. I’m so sad and scared at times I just wish I could hold my little angel in my arms and watch him or her grow.  God I pray  this gets easier. I know that our bond as a couple has grown but my heart has been broken..