My Miscarriage Story

Awhile back i wrote you guys the news saying me and my fiance were expecting our very first child. Brought to us by complete surprise but we were excited and couldn’t be more eager to see our little sunshine grow. Weeks later i was woken to pain right below my rib, i didnt  think much of it but it was extreme and i knew it couldn’t be a good thing. I never expected it to mean something was wrong with my baby. My fiance drove us to the er where we checked in and they took us back immediately. We did some blood work and i was beginning to feel fine.. never once started having cramps or any blood. So miscarriage was the last thing on my mind. A little later, they took me back for an ultrasound. They said they couldn’t show me anything or tell me anything untill the doctor reads and looks over everything. So after the ultrasound they took me back to my room and the waiting begins. my fiance looks to me and asks how everything was, I told him we don’t know yet. time passes and we get eager and impatient.. Whats taking so long? About 45 minutes pass and my doctor finally comes in. He pulls up a chair and i grab my fiance hand. I said ” so how were things? Is my baby okay??” I expected to hear a yes.. But instead my life took a turn for the worst. He told me my baby no longer had a heartbeat. I feel like someone just took everything from me. I couldn’t talk and it hurt to breath. Seems unreal because days before i just seen our little baby moving and with a strong healthy heartbeat. I just don’t understand what happened. Makes me so pissed at god for giving me a baby and taking it away from me.. How could he hurt me like that?! No person should have to go through that. Ive never felt so sad and broken in my entire life. Its just not fair! Thats my baby! Mine! why did he take it away from me..? Its just not fair..